"Needing You"

It had been a struggle for me these past few weeks. Many things had happened at work. I don't know if it's only me, or just the fact that workload is just heavy for me to deal with. Not only I handle two clients (which that apparently includes that I follow up everything that requested, from product spec sheet to test reports that needed to be translated to English), I arrange all of our shipments (maybe one or two are not included), I do purchase orders to our factory, actually now that listing these up, they don't seem to be that much. But in fact, adding all of these up, i'm trying to figure out how to breathe and where to get the brain to finish it all.

'She' is not helping, and her scolding was just not helping me a bit. Lately I felt that my confidence is just so low that I'm not fit for this job anymore. If before I felt that I can excel in this, not anymore. I know it's not right. Like how I let these negative feelings get into me, how I let her get into me straightly, how I get annoyed just because of her nasty attitude. Lord, I am really having a struggle. I'm praying right now that I will have the wisdom and the courage to deal with it. Cause looking back last week, I wasn't really able to believe that I had thought of qutting job, of passing my resignation letter.

God, I really do need You to change my attitude. My mind, to see things and matters through Your eyes. My actions, to do things according to Your will. I really do need Your strength to face each day. Amen