"Don't Dream It's Over"

Past few weeks had been so overwhelming for me, been thinking of making new decisions, new moves.
Do I or do I not dare try living in another new environment?
Do I keep on my smiles even when sometimes it's not funny anymore? or do I continue with my mask? I felt like I couldn't move on anymore, like as if I'm not sure which way to go and what decision should be made. But in the end, i can say that I'm so blessed that i had my Australia trip with me this holiday.
Not only did keep my mind busy with things, but kept my eyes with the beautiful scenery of the Australia, and it proved me one thing, I really do love the sun! I didn't mind myself under the big sun (as long as I'm ready so I'll know what to wear beforehand!)

Anyways, just when I thought I was moving on (again!), I had a dream of him again.
WTF! argggggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am really trying to move on, I want to!
So... Do you think to keep my sanity intact, I should leave the country again? =)
lol.