" My First Birthday.... "

My first birthday.
My first birthday with Jesus in my life.
My first birthday in church.
My first birthday with my friends in church.
My first birthday as a child of God.

Looking back at the days..
When I thought I'm not loved, not cherished.
And even quite stupid 'coz I remember asking God,
why am I forsaken. why am I unimportant.
why am I alone. and why am I here.

It took me a long time to understand the truth.
The truth that I wasn't alone. Wasn't alone from the start.
Wasn't loved and cherished from the beginning.
The truth is Jesus loves me so much that He died on the cross for me.
The truth that I was so blinded by my flesh, that I kept whining and complaining,
but instead I should start claiming God's blessing and love.

And now, everyday seems to be a new and a blessed journey to me, especially when I have Jesus in the center of my life. I don't have to be afraid to take a step forward, because i know there's gonna be a light. because I know God would direct my paths. And i don't have to be afraid if I stumble, because He won't let me fall. because He won't leave me alone. and He won't let go of my hand. Just like a daddy never letting go of his children's hand to prevent them from going away, from getting hurt, from getting stumbled.

And I know when the time comes when a new playmate would come and play with me, I won't let go of my Father's hand either. I'll think of a way so they could meet. They can see how blessed and how I am loved by my Father that they would want to feel that love too. I will take my Father's hand with me no matter where I go, and no matter what i do. I'll always remember what He said. And i'm gonna be this nice child and obey what He wants me to do.

The people that I'm gonna meet, the experiences that I'm gonna have, the road that I'm gonna take, the things that I'm gonna do... And because now I have Jesus in my life, everything is gonna be a lot more meaningful for me. And life is all about Jesus :D

And oh, now I know why I am here on earth.
And another thing, I'm not alone now :)

P.S. Thank u for the cake, Diane! yummy!!~~ that was really so nice of u. luv yah!
For Prudence, for lifting my confident up, saying i'm only sixteen! haha
Marina and Jennifer for being my cheerleader whenever I'm down.
For Caroline who just loves me so much! (same goes to the Chambers Family, haha)
For Angie, just because ..she went to church today. seeing her presence is enough gift for my bday.
For Maria, who wants me to be his son's future wife. haha i luv yah all!
For Annie who always bright my day!
For J, for being a cool leader, and a funny one. thanks for all the hugs anyway.
For Pastor I, for having a big heart.

Mom, Sis', Bry and Justine.... I luv ya guys sooo much! aren't we all just blessed?
To all my cousins who text me (u know who u are, they are many of u) and friends, giving u thanks here. till my next birthday! hahahahaha

*I love you Lord
And I lift my voice,
To worship you
o' my soul rejoice
Take joy my King
In what you hear
Let it be a sweet sweet sound
In Your ears.*